Five weeks ago I started with this 6-month study and it's showing great results. My viral load was 33,700 on the first tests, and today is showing 27,000. It's great news for me. Praise God.

I've been going through some grieving time. I have an appointment to legally sign guardianship with my sister. That really hit me hard. Today I had an appointment at 8 A.M. with Larry, the official from court. He came to investigate the family. He's one of the persons working on the legal guardianship or joint custody of my children. He stayed a couple of hours and asked to see my children's bedrooms, etc. I'm surprised of the details he went through. I guess it's just the normal thing to do. After all, it's my children's custody. Giving up my children, it's not that I'm giving them up at present but it reminds me. I have the feeling that I have been cheated because my children are so special to me – the ones that I hold on to.

I got to see my kids last week for the first time in 6 months. I got to spend 2 hours with them. My ex-husband is deteriorating real fast with this disease. He told the DCS worker that he wanted to put them in foster care and have them adopted out. She says that as soon as he dies, I will get my kids back with no strings attached.