Over the last two decades the societal legacies of “internal decolonization” have grown in importance as an area of historiographical interest for historians of postwar Britain. Contrary to the claim that the winding down of empire held minimal importance in the metropole, there now exists a large and expanding body of work that places the impacts of imperial decline at the heart of debates about identity and historical change for postwar British society.Footnote 1 Yet, if historians have found ever-more sophisticated ways of reading the legacies of empire into the analysis of British culture, a curious omission from the new imperial historiography concerns the cultural impacts of Britain’s longest and most destabilizing postwar conflict: the Northern Ireland Troubles. “No account,” contends Stuart Ward, “of the global convulsions of Britishness in the decades after the Second World War can ignore the outbreak of the Troubles” since “of all the myriad setbacks to Britain’s worldly dispensation none were so divisive, disruptive, or enduring in their implications.” As several scholars have observed, however, historians have all but ignored the “colonial resonances”Footnote 2 of the conflict, such that “virtually no attempt has been made to explain the Troubles in terms of the wider dynamics of a declining British empire,” and this despite “an abundance of speculation by contemporaries to that very effect.”Footnote 3
Based on the findings of a three-year study, this article illuminates some of the ways these dynamics affected the experiences of Northern Irish migrants who settled in England during the years of the Troubles between 1969–98.Footnote 4 Grounded in the analysis of over eighty oral histories, we use migrants’ settlement stories to explore popular reactions to the Troubles in England and their significance for the remaking of Northern Irish migrant identities over the course of their lives in England. A key finding to emerge from the study concerns the peculiar positionality of Northern Irish Protestant migrants and the distinctive complications they experienced in formulating coherent narratives of cultural belonging. Where many such migrants regarded themselves as “British” and expected affirmation of this perception on the “British mainland,” popular responses to the Troubles in England tended to disavow the historical ties connecting Ulster Britons with the “British people.” For Ulster Protestants like David Anderson, who migrated to Liverpool in 1988, settling in Troubles-era England forced confrontation with what Alvin Jackson has termed the “emotional and spiritual deficit in the union,” which raised profound ontological questions concerning the corporate belonging of the self:Footnote 5
see I came to Britain thinking I’m coming to my kinsfolk here, they’ll be like me, and realising they’re not like me, and then you say okay, so, I don’t think I’m like Catholics in Northern Ireland, but I’ve now discovered I’m not like British people in Britain, so what are we then? Are we Camus’s L’étranger or something like that? Do we not fit anywhere, you know? Does nobody want us anymore? Does nobody want the pied noir? So what are we? And then you sort of scratch your head a little bit and you think okay, so then you do reassess yourself and say well, where do I belong and what are you? Footnote 6
This article uses these narratives of ontological reflexivity to address two core questions: in what sense were Ulster Britons “not wanted” in England in this period? And what were the implications of this for the shaping of Ulster Protestant migrant selfhoods? The first section explores public narratives of the Troubles in England to show how popular perceptions of the conflict were structured by the wider discursive legacies of Britain’s postwar imperial retreat. Building on insights developed by Stuart Ward, Stuart Aveyard, Richard Bourke, and Ian McBride, we investigate how the postwar collapse of “Greater Britishness” affected the development of the Troubles by fueling the circulation of new rhetorical frameworks for the actuation of competing post-imperial identities.Footnote 7 If this served to galvanize militant ethnicities in the North of Ireland, in England itself the pervasive tendency to “discern Ulster’s difficulties through the dim twilight of empire” worked to distance Britons from the developing conflict and the identity claims of Ulster Britishness: “as the situation grew more volatile,” observes Ward, “evidence abounded of a widening gulf between ‘mainland’ British sympathies and the loyalist cause, casting the latter in the role of estranged relatives.”Footnote 8 The first part of the article explores some of this evidence to show how the inscription of the Troubles within languages of national decline configured Ulster as an imperial liability, embedding a process of imaginative estrangement that both accentuated the region’s “otherness” while assigning it to obsolescence. At its sharpest edges, this encompassed the denigration of Ulster Britishness as an alien and atavistic form of identity, the disavowal of which performatively distinguished Britain’s post-imperial status.
The second and third sections trace how these public strategies for negotiating the Troubles percolated into vernacular understandings, using oral histories to explore how everyday discourses on the conflict mediated interactions between migrants and their host population.Footnote 9 While much existing research here debates the extent to which Irish people formed a “suspect community” in Troubles-era England,Footnote 10 these sections focus attention on the migrant “encounter” as “an everyday engagement across difference” that brings “discrepant stakes and histories together in ways that produce new cultural meanings, categories, objects, and identities.”Footnote 11 Linking public imaginaries with interpersonal negotiations, these encounters show how vernacular discourses on the Troubles interacted with public narratives in variable ways, producing a nuanced repertoire of responses to the “otherness” of Northern Ireland. These were characterized, not so much by territorialism or confrontation, as by habits of peripheralization and dissociation, which devalued the relevance of conflict in Ireland for the everyday lives of Britons. This supported the accommodation and displacement of conflict in England, limiting the extent to which antagonistic collectivities crystallized in response to the Troubles, but it also tended to underscore the spiritual redundancy of the union. As the most pervasive symptom of this, Ulster Protestants discovered that their Britishness was routinely imperceptible or misperceived in England, and that colleagues, in-laws, flatmates, and friends often regarded Northern Ireland as a national burden or encumbrance.
The final part of the article deepens understanding of these encounters as points of intersection where the cross-cutting of different histories produces new subjectivities and identifications. Setting engagements across difference within the context of extended life histories spanning the pre- and post-Troubles periods, this section analyzes how individual migrants “compose” the subjective impacts of cultural encounter in England as part of personal efforts to construct coherent narratives of belonging over the life-course.Footnote 12 In-depth analyses of three particular oral histories provides depth to the broader identity formation at work in all the interviews. Working with Alistair Thomson’s framing of the migrant experience as a process of ontological renegotiation, it approaches the encounter as a generative aspect of the disjunctive character of movement across thresholds: “The experience of migration, which by definition is centered around a process of acute disjuncture, presents both an urgent need for, and particular difficulties in, the construction of coherent identities and life stories, a past we can live by.”Footnote 13
In the case of Ulster Protestant migrants, this process of “acute disjuncture” was defined by the way cultures of disavowal in Troubles-era England disturbed personal investments in Britishness as a framework of belonging and self-understanding. For such migrants, the forging of a coherent sense of self involved attempts to narratively integrate the destabilizing impacts of cultural encounter in England with memories, emotions, and identifications extending from their formative experiences of growing up in the polarized sociopolitical world of Northern Ireland. The final stage of the argument developed over the course of this article interrogates the mechanics of this process to illuminate how migrants’ experiences of conflict in the North and disavowal in England converge and interact in shaping the differential outworkings of personal identity. It contends that, although these migrants were all cognizant of the “otherness” of Ulster-Britishness in England, the manner in which they negotiated conflicts of belonging was heavily influenced by personal life trajectories and associated strategies of remembering: experiences of cultural encounter engendered complex personal legacies, shaping diverse reformulations of identity and intricately fractured narratives of belonging that resist crude ethno-national categorization. In developing this multi-relational history of Protestant migrant selfhoods in Troubles-era England, we respond to criticism of the “groupist” ontologies underpinning much current writing and discussion of identities in situations of conflict and migration.Footnote 14
“Groupism,” as defined by Rogers Brubaker, treats social groups as “real, substantial things-in-the-world,” and limits understanding of the history of experiencing, creating, and doing ethnicities because it occludes both the conditions under which identifications crystallize and the socio-cognitive and interactional processes by which individuals construct themselves as subjects of belonging.Footnote 15 What theories of subjective composure help illuminate in this context is how identifications are remade as a function of the interplay between memory and the dynamic impacts of formative life events, episodes, and transitions. Although Ulster Protestant migrants encountered the same forms of disavowal in England, they responded to these processes in highly specific ways, evolving, at different points in their lives, variable ways of interpreting, evaluating, and composing their relationship to conflictual and internally fractured narratives of Britishness and Irishness. In exploring Ulster Protestant histories via these relations, the article presents some alternative interpretive possibilities for assessing the impact of the Troubles on British-Irish relations in England, and for historicizing the human and cultural legacies of the conflict more generally.
Public Narratives of the Troubles at the End of Empire
The British people have had enough of this mediaeval nonsense and they are certainly not prepared to tolerate the British Army being sacrificed to perpetuate a barbaric struggle. Footnote 16
If British troops cannot be allowed full freedom of action to take the war to the enemy, then the only logical alternative is to withdraw entirely from that wretched place and let all the Irish sort it out themselves. If they wish to murder each other, that is their privilege. As for the so-called ‘Loyalists’, we want nothing whatsoever to do with them. They have forfeited every right to British citizenship and are a blight on our nation. Northern Ireland has nothing to offer the other races of the United Kingdom and should be given full independence immediately.Footnote 17
If Jim Callaghan’s decision to commit troops to Ulster in August 1969 initially met with some support in Britain, the onset of insurgency in the months following transformed public attitudes.Footnote 18 As early as February 1971 the British cabinet considered that “public opinion in Great Britain was beginning actively to resent the situation which was developing in Northern Ireland,”Footnote 19 and by September feared that “public opinion in this country” would not “tolerate indefinitely” extended British intervention.Footnote 20 Such resentment was apparent, not only in early polling in favor of military withdrawal, but in deteriorating public perceptions of the region itself.Footnote 21 “When war ravaged the province from 1969 to 1999,” claims Richard Weight, “sympathy disappeared, and mainlanders came instead to define themselves against the Northern Irish.”Footnote 22
Why did support for intervention in Northern Ireland evaporate so quickly in 1970s England? And in what sense did “mainlanders” come to “define themselves against” the population of a devolved region of the UK state? From one perspective, the weakening of the union after 1969 merely reflected the outworkings of a longer history of intra-state “Ulsterization,” apparent from the very creation of Northern Ireland in 1920.Footnote 23 For, while Lloyd George’s settlement of the Irish Question had enabled Ulster unionists to opt out of an all-Ireland parliament at this critical juncture, it did not allow them to opt in to a unitary British state. On the contrary, the creation of a devolved administration in Belfast as part of the terms of the Government of Ireland Act was supposed to insulate interwar Britain from the perennial turbulence of Irish politics, and in its federal dispensation symbolized the inherently ambivalent nature of Northern Ireland’s relation to the rest of the UK.Footnote 24 Thus, while Northern Ireland was accorded full access to the expanding British welfare system after 1921, wider aspects of its internal politics were not discussed at Westminster as a matter of “constitutional convention” and no secretary of state was appointed to report on Northern Irish affairs.Footnote 25 And while Northern Ireland participated as an equal partner in Britain’s wartime mobilization, the province was usually occluded within official accounts of the People’s War.Footnote 26 Fragile support for the union after 1969 thus intimated frailties in its constitution, extending in the first instance from the peripheralizing logic of the partitionist settlement.
As Ian McBride and Stuart Ward both suggest, however, the development of the Troubles at the end of 1960s needs also to be seen within the wider context of British decolonization and the ways this created new discursive lenses for reading the past and present of Anglo-Irish conflict.Footnote 27 If Northern Ireland’s integration into the UK state had always been partial and contested, the idea of “Greater Britain” nevertheless anchored Ulster Britishness within notions of a wider British family, and so the “stripping away of the imperial backdrop after 1945 increasingly cast the province in a very different light.” Although most of Britain’s imperial possessions had been liquidated by the time civil conflict erupted in the North, it was “precisely this advanced stage of imperial decline that posed highly charged questions about the long-term viability of a virulently loyal British outpost in the face of a newly energised nationalist challenge.”Footnote 28 By the 1970s, in effect, Britain’s experience of two decades of imperial retreat had generated its own structures of metropolitan metaphor and myth, and these were readily transposable to the escalating crisis in Ulster.
One way this fed popular English aversion to the Troubles concerned the moral implications of military intervention and the growing postwar currency of languages of imperial conscience. As Erik Linstrum has recently argued, “anticolonial and anti-war politics, isolated or co-opted during the Second World War, acquired new life” in postwar Britain in response to “the moral shocks of counterinsurgency,” and this popularized new ethical and rights-based standpoints from which to critique the excesses of imperial power.Footnote 29 Inscribed as the object of this moral gaze, the “emergency” in Northern Ireland appeared as a late imperial “dirty war” where Britain was engaged in the violent oppression of subject peoples and scandalous human rights violations.Footnote 30 Moral critique of this kind emanated, not only from student campuses and the networks of the extra-parliamentary Left,Footnote 31 but percolated through mainstream journalism and Commons debates, via popular music and public demonstrations.Footnote 32 Its impact was registered, not only on opinion polls and in tens of thousands of letters posted to British MPs, but in the British government’s persistent efforts to convince the public of its moral impartiality and even-handedness.Footnote 33 As Matthew Lord observes, where Britain’s Falklands campaign could be weaponized to revive popular illusions of imperial power over a decade later, moral scrutiny of Britain’s role in Northern Ireland led governments to abolish the awarding and gazetting of military honors since “gallantry awards could project a triumphalist and provocative message of British heroism against the human rights of rebellious citizens.”Footnote 34
On the whole, however, deepening public antipathy toward Northern Ireland in this period had less to do with these moral anxieties than with a second and quite different form of post-imperial mythmaking. Where critics on the Left associated Britain’s role in Ulster with the persistence of imperialism within the postwar settlement, a more pervasive strand of critique identified the collapse of authority in the region with impending national disintegration, exemplifying a generalized process of national decline whereby the combined effects of minority agitation and pusillanimous liberal governance were eroding the social order. The problem that the Troubles posed to British self-perceptions had less to do with the moral repugnance of imperial violence than with its apparent irresolvability and uncontainability: successive administrations appeared incapable of either reasserting authority or negotiating a durable settlement, underscoring the moral weakness of the British state in the face of minority agitation; and in the meantime, as the military death toll rose and republicans brought their campaign of violence to the mainland, the costs to British society and citizens grew. The Troubles in this view were the most violent expression of an endemic pattern of national malaise, which portended the wholesale dissolution of British society during an era of deepening societal divisions and political uncertainty.Footnote 35
In one manifestation of this logic, the threat of societal dissolution compelled a revival of national virility. For the National Front, for example, and a small cadre of unionists on the Conservative backbenches, Ulster was the last bastion and frontline in a wider struggle to preserve the integrity of Greater Britain against international leftist subversion.Footnote 36 Equating decolonization with the progressive depletion of the nation, failure to defeat minority subversion in Ulster entailed the final implosion of the metropolitan center and exposed the “liberal cowardice” at the heart of British decline.Footnote 37 For this reason, the far-right and its supporters in Britian argued for a “mailed fist” policy in Ulster that, in addition to securing military victory, would redeem Britain’s withering self-confidence at time of multiple overlapping “crises” in the history of the nation.Footnote 38
More commonly, however, declinist readings of the Troubles tended to arrive at a quite different solution to the contagious problems the conflict appeared to pose. Attempts to mobilize popular support for a regenerative imperial struggle in Northern Ireland failed in this period, not because of popular moral queasiness or state-led ideological manipulation, but because majority opinion in England came to see extended intervention as a form of imperial liability, injurious in the last instance to the interests of ordinary and deserving Britons.Footnote 39 If decolonization had popularized new ethical standpoints from which to read postwar military interventions, it had also helped crystalize a new language of post-imperial victimhood, which identified incessant involvement in colonial wars as one aspect of a general pattern of working-class neglect and disenfranchisement.Footnote 40 Audible already in early responses to the Troubles in 1970, this populist perspective saturated debate on Ulster through 1974–75, fueled by angry reactions to the humiliation of the army during the Ulster Workers Council Strike,Footnote 41 the high-profile conviction of a British soldier for manslaughter in a Belfast court,Footnote 42 and the devastating escalation of the Provisional IRA’s cross-channel insurgency in English towns and cities.Footnote 43 In the wake of these overlapping developments, members of Parliament (MPs) across the country received a tidal wave of personal letters demanding Northern Ireland be “given full independence immediately,” while military families and two national newspapers launched public campaigns for military withdrawal.Footnote 44 Observing a surge in the polls for “cutting ties” with Northern Ireland, Conservative backbenchers recorded that “many MPs” were now coming “under constituency pressure,”Footnote 45 while “angry demands” for military withdrawal were emanating “for the first time from the right-wing of British opinion.”Footnote 46
Climaxing in the mid-1970s, this crisis of representation had profound long-run implications for the consumption of the Troubles within English society. On the one hand, by heightening official fears that Britain was “losing the propaganda war,” growing criticism of the state’s handling of the Troubles fueled increasing government intervention in the national media. As well as the exertion of new pressures on journalistic coverage, this involved a concerted attempt to reset the narrative of the conflict in a manner that dislodged its imperial connotations. Perceiving that the conflict was unlikely to be resolved in the foreseeable future, and fearing the human and political consequences of withdrawal, from 1975 onward successive governments endeavored to normalize the Troubles, recasting it as a struggle between justice and terrorism in a bid to “counter the narrative that Britain was bogged down in yet another bloody anti-colonial struggle.”Footnote 47
This, as media scholars observe, did not silence the government’s critics, but it did foster the repositioning of the conflict as a domestic law-and-order story within large swathes of the print and broadcast media. In consequence, suggests David Miller, British audiences increasingly “switched off” from the conflict: after years of repetitious coverage, in which the same rhetorical tropes were incessantly recycled, the reduction of the Troubles to a static iconography and binary formula (justice versus terrorism; Catholic versus Protestant; extremists versus moderates) dissipated public interest, promoting boredom and confusion, resignation and moral indifference, as characteristic responses to the apparently purposeless reign of sectarian violence.Footnote 48 Many Britons thus learnt to live with the Troubles via a process of imaginative withdrawal: as one English journalist remarked, “few of us have the monstrous appetite of the Northern Irish for their inherently uninteresting doings.”Footnote 49
The inverse of this, however, was that the irredeemably “monstrous” aspect of the Troubles also served as a useful resource in contrasting the relative peaceableness of everyday life in Britain during a period of exceptional political, social, and economic turbulence. Coterminous with the crisis of representation created by the conflict was the focalization of an externalizing gaze that implicitly counterposed the blood-soaked “wasteland” of Northern Ireland to the elevated vantage point of the impartially appalled British onlooker.Footnote 50 Apparent across a remarkable range of texts and genres, from tabloid ethnic caricature to current affairs documentaries, from NGO reports to mainstream political thrillers, this widespread consumption of the violent alterity of Northern Ireland registered both the self-distancing and self-differentiating functions of Troubles narratives: as a locus of atavistic extremism and social decay, benighted Ulster set off the rational virtues of English society, averting the impassioned entanglements of British-Irish history while supplying armchair fascination and reassuring normalcy for British audiences during decades when English society was undergoing political upheavals of its own.
Perhaps unsurprisingly, these processes were most explicitly realized at precisely the points where the history of “here” merged with the history of “there.” Where various scholars have drawn attention to the ways in which the impacts of the Troubles stimulated a resurgence of anti-Irish stereotyping in Britain, what is less often recognized is that these same processes of ethnicization were extended to Northern Ireland’s British community to de-authenticate its professions of loyalty.Footnote 51 For although Ulster unionists had been able to attract British support for their cause before 1914, after 1969 the spectacle of loyalist mobilization provoked ridicule and embarrassment in Britain, propelling a discourse in which the obdurate Britishness of Northern Ireland was both elided and problematized as an obstacle to peace, progress, and rational common sense. In stark contrast to the cross-channel imperial solidarities forged through resistance to Home Rule in Edwardian Britain, popular responses to Ulster Britishness during the Troubles enacted its symbolic dissociation, dissolving its specificity into generic stereotypes of Irish tribalism, while likening its rituals of fervent loyalty to an obscure imperial fossil.Footnote 52
Popular representations of Ulster Britishness, exemplified in Arthur Horner’s caustic depiction of the loyalist-driver Ulster Workers Council Strike of May 1974 (Figure 1), thus extended the differentiating functions of wider discourses in a distinctive way. By serving as a foil for the symbolization of obsolete and discredited forms of Britishness, the consumption of Ulster Protestantism as a strange relic from a disavowed era enabled Britons to see themselves as the antithesis of this bigoted and atavistic community. That is, Ulster Britishness served as a mirror in which Anglo-Britons recognized themselves as post-imperial. The figure of the Ulster Protestant was thus conscripted within the wider reimagining of the nation as a way of marking distance between past and present.
Arthur Horner, “The Loyalists,” The Sun, 25 May 1974, BCA/26261. © NewsUK.

Encounters Across Difference: Negotiating the Troubles within Migrant Accounts of Everyday Life in England
How did these public imaginaries of the Troubles in England circulate within vernacular narratives of the conflict? And what were the implications of these percolations for the positioning of migrants within everyday encounters with English people? Existing research on the Irish diaspora in this period stresses hostility as the defining feature of social relations. According to this view, British-Irish conflict in Northern Ireland engendered analogous conflict in England, resulting in everyday experiences of hostility that compelled migrants to conceal or play down their Irishness.Footnote 53 For migrants interviewed as part of this study, however, responses to the Troubles in England reflected a more nuanced palette of features, registering a more complex story concerning patterns of cultural accommodation in Britain and their peculiar distancing effects.
Intimating the extent to which the conflict could be screened-out of popular consciousness, many Northern Irish migrants in England, both Catholic and Protestant, were struck by the prevalence of English indifference and the ways in which this foreclosed the potential for everyday conflict. A commonly reported feature of everyday perceptions was an apparent lack of interest in or curiosity about events in Northern Ireland. David Stone, who migrated to Manchester in 1982 to pursue a career in the National Health Service, recalled that while his new colleagues were “really friendly” and “supportive,” they rarely inquired about events in Northern Ireland, except when they impinged directly on local affairs: “I think the only time they were interested was after the Manchester bombing and stuff.”Footnote 54 Similarly, John Mitchell migrated to Berkshire to develop his career as a scientist during the first cross-channel IRA bombing campaign in the early 1970s, and at the time had been wary about being identified with Northern Ireland. What he discovered, however, was that work colleagues were “very friendly” and, at times, unnervingly indifferent to the dangerous possibilities he imagined his origins might evoke:
my car had a Northern Irish registration, so this is 1973, perhaps 1974, and I had to go and get some stuff from the archive and I remember parking outside and saying by the way I’ve got a Northern Ireland registered car outside and they didn’t even twig that that was an issue, I think it would be different now, but people, a lot of people either weren’t aware of it or just weren’t, didn’t think it was an issue, so.Footnote 55
Such indifference often shaded into misperception and misunderstanding of interviewees’ ethnic and national backgrounds. Where most Protestant migrants here regarded themselves as at least partially “British,” everyday habits of categorical ascription routinely misrecognized their ethno-national origins. Often to their surprise, Protestant migrants discovered that colleagues, in-laws, flatmates, and friends did not discriminate between Irish ethnic backgrounds or national allegiances. Philip Alexander, who migrated to Oxford to attend university in 1965, recalled that “people would regard me as Irish and this was actually quite a revelation to me because I thought of myself as, you know, British.”Footnote 56 Jane Baird, who migrated to London in 1977, observed that “it upset some Protestants who moved here to be treated as Irish because to English people you’re Irish.”Footnote 57 Martin Seeds too, who migrated to London in 1986, remembered that people “didn’t understand the fact that the island is divided into two”:
like you’re a Protestant, you’re brought up in this kind of environment where you’re British and you’ve got to be like proud of that and then you, and then you get to, to England and then everyone just thinks you’re Irish! And then so, it’s a real, it does really mess with your head quite a bit 'cause like,“but I’m British” and they’re like, and there was this really like confused, like ignorant but not in a stupid ignorant way but just all knowingly that people just didn’t get, didn’t understand the fact that the island is divided into two and one part’s part of the United Kingdom and the other part is a separate country…Footnote 58
In some instances, such occasions of misrecognition served to construct shared lineages, creating opportunities for the articulation of common origin stories and histories. Gavin Paul, who migrated to Hull in 1983 before moving to Manchester, recounted that:
I never had a bad word said against me…People were curious because they heard the accent and they’d come and tell you about their relatives that, you know, were then in Ireland and the rest of it.Footnote 59
In other cases, misrecognition involved the marking of ethnic boundaries and the expression of racial hostility. Although Susan McCaughan, who migrated to Sheffield in 1981 and later worked as a probation officer in Greater Manchester, considered that English people were generally “not bothered” about Northern Ireland, she recounted how “colleagues and service users” subjected her to “criticism about being Irish” in the weeks following the 1996 Manchester bomb.Footnote 60 More dramatically, Amanda Robinson, who migrated to Middlesex in 1996, recalled how the sound of her accent provoked an irate fellow passenger to brandish a knife while traveling to Covent Garden with English friends on a night out:
then the tube thankfully stopped and he jumped out waving the knife at me, going you ‘IRA bitch you, you IRA bitch’, and I was like oh, okay, I’ve, I’ve lived all my life in Northern Ireland, never have I been threatened with a weapon, and A, I’m not a member of the IRA, I was actually brought up Protestant.Footnote 61
Most commonly, however, Protestant accounts of misrecognition identified misperceptions of their identity with Anglo-centrism and ingrained indifference to the union as a locus of shared national belonging. Although unionist and loyalist communities in Northern Ireland might view the Troubles as a civil conflict fought to preserve a common British heritage, most Protestant migrants in England came to acknowledge that English people did not see themselves reflected in this struggle. In some cases, this was expressed through articulations of the remoteness of Northern Ireland and a concerted reluctance to engage with unionist perspectives. Gareth Aiken, who moved with his family to Welwyn Garden City in 1960, considered that “people in this island have never really accepted that Northern Ireland, whether you like it or not, is actually part of the same country as England.”Footnote 62 Similarly, when David Anderson migrated to Liverpool in 1988 he imagined he was joining a community of “kindred spirits”: “I suppose being an Ulster Protestant, you think I’ve come to the motherland.” Once, however, “the penny dropped” he “quickly realised” that English people “don’t give a toss”:
again I come back to this point, I think a lot of the English stroke British, again they didn’t really want to know because it was just, they didn’t really understand it, they didn’t really want to understand it, they just thought right, there’s an island over there and I’ve never been there, I don’t really want to go there, but there’s two communities trying to kill each other, are killing each other and really, they didn’t really want to know any more than that. Footnote 63
In other cases, English disidentification with the “Ulster Protestant” position manifested symptoms of aversion focused on the varied costs of the conflict to a selectively defined national “we.” Thus, where the violence of the conflict potentially endangered English lives, “Northern Ireland” evoked danger and fear. This was apparent, not only in relation to the impacts of republican attacks in England and the experiences of British soldiers, but in responses to the mere prospect of crossing the Irish Sea. John Cotton, who migrated to Wales in 1971, recalled how his future wife’s parents “were very concerned about her going over the first time,”Footnote 64 while Iris Stevens, who migrated to Manchester in 1980, remembered how members of her English husband’s family “wouldn’t come” to their wedding in Bushmills, Co Antrim, “cos they thought they’d get shot.”Footnote 65 Likewise, when Tanya Boyd, who migrated with her parents to Leicester in 1982, decided to marry in Belfast in the early 1990s she discovered that her in-laws and their family friends were “very anxious”:
I didn’t really understand this at the time cos I thought well, why wouldn’t you come, were too nervous to come to the wedding, I mean lots of people did but a lot of people just didn’t, they couldn’t even think that you would go and visit Northern Ireland.Footnote 66
More generally, popular aversion expressed itself via a critical swathe of vernacular discourse that actively contested Britain’s political involvement in Northern Ireland and explicitly rejected unionist entitlement to British nationality. In these cases, while interlocutors recognized that Ireland was a divided country, they also regarded Britain’s involvement as politically and economically misguided or morally unjustifiable. Mervyn Busteed, who migrated to Wales in 1967 before moving to England in 1969, perceived “that if one of the major political parties had finally concluded it was time for Britain to withdraw from Northern Ireland, there would be a fair amount of public sympathy for that” given how “expensive” the conflict was “in terms of lives, in terms of national resources and in terms of national prestige on the international stage.”Footnote 67 Laura Hodson, who migrated to Manchester in 1984, likewise considered that English people “couldn’t see any reason why people were fighting to stay, keep Northern Ireland part of the UK” and disliked “their people” being “over there, putting themselves at danger for no reason.” One night she overheard “derogatory comments” at the bar:
And I think I’d gone up to get, you know, the drinks and somebody at the bar had sort of like made, was making some like derogatory comments…they were just basically saying that the people over there should learn to live with each other and that, you know, it was a load of nonsense and that it shouldn’t be part of the United Kingdom anyway.Footnote 68
For Gavin Paul, what such sentiments pointed to was a widespread perception of Northern Ireland as a national burden and source of embarrassment: although English people were often “very anti-IRA,” he never “encountered anyone in England” who argued that “we need to hold on to our territory, that being the six counties of Northern Ireland”:
I think probably the overwhelming opinion was, let’s get out of there. I think that was—most people I would meet would just want to wash their hands of it because I think they found themselves in a situation where increasingly the security forces were coming under pressure for torture and all sorts of things. And while in Northern Ireland that would have been brushed under the carpet… in England it was a more balanced approach and I think that they were just getting sullied by what was going on there. That was the impression I got off people.Footnote 69
Negotiating Disavowal in Personal Narratives of Settlement in England
What Northern Irish migrant accounts thus evidence is the importance of disavowal (rather than antagonism) as a defining feature of English attitudes to the Troubles. This perspective allowed the problematic aspects of the conflict to be rendered impotent or remote; tended to accentuate the “otherness” of Northern Ireland as a locus of incomprehensible violence; and it worked overall to disarticulate the Britishness of Ulster, which manifested in routine habits of misrecognition and renunciation. What, however, were the subjective implications of this process for the personal adaption of Ulster Protestant migrants? For migrants who had grown up in an environment where Britishness was often consecrated as a sacred birthright, how did the disavowal of Northern Ireland in England feel, and how were these feelings negotiated as part of efforts to formulate a coherent narrative of belonging?
For many such migrants, personal interactions with English narratives of the Troubles created complex dilemmas of identification, motivating attempts to use the interview dialogue to evaluate the self’s relation to conflictual discourses of Britishness and Irishness. At one end of the spectrum, experiences of cultural encounter could engender feelings of alienation where processes of popular disavowal were associated with personal betrayal. Sarah Hamilton migrated from Antrim to Manchester in 1981 and, like many Protestant migrants, recalled how work colleagues often spoke “disparagingly” about “Northern Ireland,” “basically condemning the British intervention and saying that that wasn’t a good idea.”Footnote 70 Unlike most other migrants, however, such encounters left her feeling “angry,” “upset,” and “quite attacked.” Such “raging emotions,” as Sarah described them, were liable to ignite in any context where the contested meanings of the Troubles formed an object of discussion, and shaped perceptions of England as a space of besiegement and embattlement:
I spent my entire life being, as if my way of life was being threatened and everything that I knew and did was being attacked.Footnote 71
Yet, although Sarah found the views of work colleagues objectionable, her “raging emotions” did not compel a verbal defense of unionist constitutional principles or claims to British national belonging. As Sarah explained, while she “felt” her views “so strongly” and would have liked to “say something intelligent and appropriate,” she did not feel able to “articulate” her perspective in dialogue with critical others:
that’s not something I can do. I’m not quick. I told you I was a completely dozy person and still am but I’m not quick thinking. So I wouldn’t have been able to express myself adequately in an argument, a discussion. So no, I choose never to do that because I simply am not an able person.Footnote 72
One way of making sense of these themes of suppressed rage and inarticulacy in Sarah’s account concerns the unavailability of a public framework of intelligibility. Historian Penny Summerfield contends that “ordinary people who have memories that do not fit publicly available accounts” often “have difficulty finding words and concepts with which to compose their memories.” Where narrating subjects “cannot draw on an appropriate public account, their response is to seek to justify their deviation, or to press their memories into alternative frameworks, or to be able to express their stories only in fragmentary and deflected accounts.”Footnote 73 On this reading, the difficulty Sarah experiences in self-expression in England is linked with the wider marginalization of Ulster British narratives within English culture: in the absence of a widely disseminated representation of unionist or loyalist perspectives, in which personal histories, political views, and emotional dispositions are coherently articulated, Sarah struggles to locate a subject-position from which to project a coherent version of self, and so elects instead to privatize her personal views and feelings. Viewing this as a form of personal failure, her “deviation” is explained in terms of personal intellectual inadequacy.
From another perspective, these aspects of Sarah’s emotional experience also refer back to the personal impacts of the Troubles in shaping the emotional development of the pre-migration self. The language of attack, threat, and embattlement Sarah employs to represent situations of cultural encounter in England are here imaginatively linked with the standpoint from which she experienced conflict-related violence before departure for Manchester. As she explained, while the Troubles left a “deep and lasting impression” on her life, this was not due to fears for her own physical safety; rather, she was “terrified” for the safety of her father, who took employment with the Royal Ulster Constabulary in the early 1970s following the termination of his career within the local linen industry:
my personal safety wasn’t ever in doubt. I was young, I wasn’t going to get hurt, injured or die. I mean why would I? It was my father. I was really worried about him. Because when finally all the linen industry shut down, because of his amateur radio he got a job (pause) doing communications with the police.…So initially he would be flying in to Crossmaglen and stuff like that. That was really, really scary. The car had to be locked in the garage and if he ever left it then—or if it was out overnight for some reason then he had to look under it. Occasionally he stayed with his parents in Lambeg just outside Lisburn and again because they had a car then, the car was on the drive, so he had to be very careful to look under it before he got into and turned it on.Footnote 74
Moving to England in 1981 removed Sarah from the immediate context of violence in Northern Ireland, but it did not insulate her from the conflict’s emotional effects. This was because she continued to “worry” about the physical safety of her father who, as an RUC officer, was a target for republican attacks.Footnote 75 The visceral charge of Sarah’s “raging emotions,” triggered in response to “disparaging” remarks about Northern Ireland, can here be read as a displaced by-product of existential fears for her father’s life. By disparaging the idea of the union, Sarah’s colleagues also devalued the ideal in terms of which RUC families justified profound risks to the lives of members on a routine basis over many years. For Sarah, this justification was not an abstract political argument, but a narrative framework enabling the rationalization and containment of her own anticipatory fears of loss. The disavowal of the union in England is experienced as an “attack” because it destabilizes an emotional defense implicated in how Sarah manages ongoing conflict-related anxiety related to her father’s vulnerability.
These different aspects of Sarah’s personal history have had extended implications for her adaption to life in England. Lacking a public framework within which to situate her experiences in England, Sarah also made reference in her narrative to the enduring importance of familial norms of emotional self-disciplining for containing destabilizing thoughts.Footnote 76 As she reiterated throughout the interview, although she was “terrified” for her father’s safety, her parents “did their best to shield me and my brother from everything” by ensuring “it was never talked about in the house”:
I think it probably was (stressful) but he never spoke about it. I mean he told us what he did and all the rest of it and from his stories and stuff but he never expressed how it actually affected him and my mother, my mum never said anything either.Footnote 77
Reliance upon these techniques of emotional containment survived the migration process with the result that Sarah learned to compartmentalize those aspects of her past that could not be safely articulated in England:
It’s something that I felt. I felt it so strongly I couldn’t have expressed it at all. It’s something I keep locked away in a box and which I probably need therapy for, but—it’s safe enough in the box, it’s safe enough in the box. I just don’t open it. Footnote 78
Martin Seeds negotiated these problems of memory, emotion, and belonging in a very different way when he moved to London in 1986. Growing up in a working-class Loyalist neighborhood in East Belfast, like many other Protestant migrants, he was surprised to learn he was regarded as “Irish” in England. Yet, while this realization could “mess with your head,” misrecognition was not experienced as a personal affront: English “ignorance,” rather, was frustrating and confusing, producing disorientation and, finally, self-misunderstanding:
I remember going to the local pub across the road and they did have that sign, THAT sign that [both laugh], you know, the ‘no dirty clothes, no blacks, no Irish’ kind of thing on the sign, that was like in the '80s it was still there, it was still there, it was a real hardcore East End pub.
FR: I thought that would be down by now.
MS: No it was there, the sign was there, it said no Irish on the door so we kind of like uh, 'cause we weren’t really sure
FR: Are we Irish [both laugh]?
MS: Yeah exactly, that exactly yeah [stutters] it was all this thing, it was like a comedy sketch, 'cause we were standing outside the door looking at each other going, like are we Irish? That’s how pathetic it was, like, we didn’t actually know what we were because we’d spent a little bit of time, you know, we’d been there for a few weeks and everyone just considered us, you’re just, oh you’re Irish […] so I can’t remember who did, I just like, I think I stuck my head in and I walked in and I said “uh, are we OK to come?”, it was the stupidest thing I said to them [both laugh], “are we OK, I’m here with my friends, are we OK to come in, we’re from Northern Ireland, is that OK?”, I know it sounds really dumb, right, but like we just didn’t know.Footnote 79
As Martin’s ironic and self-parodic treatment of this episode suggests, cultural adjustment for him involved a process of self-effacement designed to establish emotional distance from difficult and disorientating questions of belonging. Where Sarah’s “raging emotions” registered an intense investment in the cultural politics of British-Irish identity in England, Martin endeavored to sublimate this politics in order to transcend the forms of personal dissonance it produces. At one level, this involved fencing off the past:
politics for me was something that I always avoided, took me a long time to actually start voting, I never voted for a long time, religion I always avoided and politics I always avoided, and really because of my experiences of growing up there, of what I seen that it was doing, how it put wedges between people, how it could be used to manipulate people… so I kind of avoided all that, I ignored politics, and for a while there was a period where I just actually ignored a lot of news about what was going on in Northern Ireland. Footnote 80
At the same time, it involved the embrace of newness and the radical refashioning of the self via immersive investment in the stimulations and opportunities of the neo-liberal metropolis:
I remember coming to London and just being totally bemused by the place, totally a massive culture shock, I mean everything was just like, like it was, I don’t know, it just seemed like this jewel box of everything and anything was possible you just had to go and grab it and do it and make it happen it was just down to you to do it and if you had the right work ethic if you had the right determination you just made it happen you just done it and, and so I made that, you know, I kind of made that, I had that thought in my head pretty early on and so I was pretty determined just to, to, to make a really good go of it enjoy myself there to take every single wild and crazy and interesting and financially rich and culturally experienced, I just, I just went a bit crazy with it all over a large number of years and I really enjoyed myself there so. Footnote 81
Where Sarah came to see her move to England as a “mistake,” for Martin migration to London marked a formative episode in the remaking of the young self. Arriving in the capital during the era of the financial “big bang,” when the city’s bourgeoning IT industry began to boom, Martin found work as a computer programmer, working for a series of large banks and pharmaceutical companies before becoming a freelance consultant in the 1990s. This, as he emphasized, supplied access to a “high end” lifestyle, comprising lucrative career opportunities and a hedonistic social life, but it also formed a context in which the constraints of the past could be transcended and the boundaries of the self reimagined. Where Sarah associated Manchester with besiegement and the persistence of anxieties linked with the Troubles, Martin associated London with expanded horizons and creative growth:
I think that’s what leaving really done for me, just that, that ability to, to put not only my own life but just issues, that were going on in the world into context of other issues that were going on in the world and just seeing how, you know, just having a broader view of things, being able to connect things together and understand that, you know, having that very sort of inward looking view is really, it kind of goes back again to saying that when you have that inward looking view it just kind of throws this big damp blanket over any potential to grow and develop and to be something that you want to be and to explore the world and to grow, you just can’t, you’re confined within these kind of very tight borders and then within those tight border, the border of a country you’re confined within the parameters of your, of your, of your tribe as well.Footnote 82
As such reflections imply, however, Martin’s sense of the transformative potential of London was inextricably bound to a counterposed view of the place left behind. Although moving to London allowed Martin to recontextualize the restrictive “parameters” of Northern Ireland’s tribal politics, the idealization of London in his account depended upon negative comparison with his home city and its people. His efforts to compose the migration journey as a story of self-transformation relied upon a persistent denigration of origins, producing a rift in the self that surfaced within troubling feelings of irresolution. While Martin reveled in the consumption of the capital’s cultural diversity, this only threw into sharp relief the “disappointment” of Belfast’s “suppressed” approach to difference:
it just felt like an enormous disappointment … there was this big, massive, rich, wonderful place out there and it was call—and you could go and live there and enjoy and entertain, make the most of it and that just felt like it was totally suppressed in Belfast and in Northern Ireland, you just, that opportunity wasn’t even talked about, you couldn’t stick your head above the parapet, you know, you couldn’t, you couldn’t be something different or, because you would draw attention to yourself and that’s what you didn’t do, you didn’t draw attention to yourself, you went along with everything, you stayed in your area, you stayed in your box and you did your standard roles that you were supposed to do, you know.Footnote 83
And while playing up Northern Ireland’s cultural impotence set off the creative growth of the migrated self, it also betrayed cultural “arrogance,” inducing feelings of “guilt” because it involved demeaning “people”:
I did feel that guilt looking back that I felt that I was more worldly-wise than people, when I was talking to people, when I was back in Belfast travelling back I would get, I think I would get quite frustrated, I almost felt like I was dumbing down and that was a real arrogance, I felt I was being, looking back on it I was being really arrogant then and I shouldn’t have, you know, I shouldn’t have felt like that, I felt that was the wrong attitude.Footnote 84
These points of irresolution were finally brought into clear view for Martin following a life transition that saw him disengage from his “high end” London lifestyle. While this lifestyle was in many ways “quite lovely,” it had also become “dull” and “boring,” as Martin realized that he had become “wrapped up in the money”: “I had all these things and it’s like, I just realised they’re just all meaningless.”Footnote 85 Seeking to reignite that “sense of enthusiasm that I had when I first moved from Belfast to London,” Martin decided to develop his life-long interest in photography, taking a series of night classes before enrolling for a three-year degree program at the University of Brighton in 2007. Here, Martin’s tutors soon spotted his “cultural baggage,” leading to “pointed conversations” about the direction of his research:
When I started off doing the photography at Brighton, my first two years, there was, I would totally refuse to make any work about Northern Ireland at all, and my tutors were really pushing me to do it 'cause they seen all this cultural baggage there, the things I needed to explore, get off my chest and I just totally refused to do it, point blank and we were having these very pointed conversations about it and I just like totally and the more I said no, the more they realised that it’s something I needed to do, I’m like well I’m just not doing it, just refused to engage with it, there’s bigger things in the world than that place, it was like I’m not going to be defined by, by that place.Footnote 86
These “pointed conversations” catalyzed the opening of a new dialogue with the past for Martin, signaling the advent of a second transitional phase in the composure of the migrated self. At first, having registered the plausibility of his tutors’ perspective, Martin evolved his photographic practice as a method of inquiry into the past, providing a pretext for reexamination and reinspection. As Martin explained, his final year project, a documentary study entitled “I have troubles …,” involved frequent return visits to photograph his home city, enabling him to refamiliarize himself with places he had avoided for many years. Thereafter, however, these initial explorations evolved into a committed process of critical review, leading to the creation of a series of Troubles-focused exhibitions and, more generally, the building of a new career as a professional photographer and university lecturer. As part of this life transition, photography took on a reparative function, serving as a “technology of self” via which Martin began to recompose the splitting effects of his initial efforts to negotiate problems of belonging in 1980s London.Footnote 87 This took the form, not of reinvestment in metanarratives of Irish or British identity, but of using the “universal” standpoint of the artist to reconnect alienated parts of the self, even as it supplied new ways of mastering and standing over the past:
I think it was coming to terms, I think that’s with age as well, you do tend to come to terms with like a lot more about who you really are and your attitudes to yourself and to other people and to the world around you and you kind of become more, because you’ve got that history and you can think about what you’ve done in the past it, it’s a, I think that reflection for me is, was important that kind of looking back and kind of thinking about [pause] about my experiences of growing up there and my, my engagements with Northern Ireland, with the years while I was living in England [pause], so I think it was, for me it was, it’s more about, maybe it was a reaching out, maybe it was me trying to connect again in some way, but, but also it was, it was, I guess in some way it’s me becoming more involved with what’s going on there and highlighting and having the sort of artist’s voice that I can maybe say things a bit more explicitly or blatantly than maybe other people can’t or maybe they’re a bit more poetic and they cause people to stop and think so they’re not about any one particular, any one particular voice, it’s kind of a universal voice, these are, these are problems that are universal problems.Footnote 88
These processes of self-renegotiation took yet another form within the migration history of Julie Marchmont, who migrated to Exeter from Belfast in 1970 to undertake teacher training. Like most other Protestant migrants, Julie recalled her early years in England as a period of shifting self-perceptions, during which she was led to reevaluate her relationship to Britishness. As she explained,
when I came over I remember thinking I’ve come from the little part of the British Isles, I’m the daughter, I am the child of, you know, they’ll look after me, growing up with this feeling that England would look after you, that the British Isles, that the Empire would care or whatever it was,…it’s a feeling, I couldn’t describe what it was, and then realising actually they’re not going to take care of me, I’ve got to find my own way and I’ve got to find my own identity.Footnote 89
Unlike most other Protestant migrants, however, Julie used the interview to redramatize this quest for belonging as an engagement with Irishness. Where Martin and Sarah described how they contained, effaced, and sublimated the destabilizing effects of cultural encounter on arrival in England, Julie narrated her early settlement experiences in terms of new self-realizations: “I got to England and that’s when I realised I was Irish, not just Northern Irish damnit, I was Irish.”Footnote 90
In one version of this settlement history, Julie’s realization of an Irish identity was shaped in response to experiences of Irish stereotyping that marked differences between herself and English people. In these stories of encounter, English attitudes serve as foil for the elaboration of a narrative of Celtic subalternity set off against the imperious ignorance of English interlocutors. As Julie explained, although she had thought of herself as “liberal” and “a rebel” back in Belfast, on arrival in Exeter she experienced a “culture shock” due to the very different way she was regarded by English college lecturers and students:
I was interviewed by the dance tutor, and he said to me do you think you’ll manage in an English college coming from Northern Ireland? Why? Well your accent, we had a guy last year and he had to have elocution lessons, and he said also we’re a much more liberal society, do you think you’ll be able to manage living in a liberal atmosphere?…then it was, it was [pause], did you, did you row the boat over? English accent, [puts on an exaggerated English accent] did you row, row the boat over? [Resumes normal voice] No. Do you have pigs in the kitchen, do you really have pigs in the kitchen? No. On the gentler side, oh Julie, I don’t know what you’re saying but I like the sound of it, and then mm-hmm, ah-ha, mm-hmm, ah-ha and, and probably the biggest insult amongst a fair few was oh you must be really clever to get into an English college, are you going to go back and, and teach the Irish what you’ve learned here? [sighs].Footnote 91
One impact of these attitudes was that Julie initially struggled to adapt to life in England: “I had a bit of a difficult first year” because “they knew nothing.”Footnote 92 At the same time, however, Julie’s developing sense of difference vis-à-vis English people also included a burgeoning sense of affinity with other similarly situated Irish people. Although there was only one “Northern Irish girl” in her training college, once Julie completed her course and began searching for work, she instinctively sought out other Irish people as friends and allies.Footnote 93 She recalled, for example, how one of her first job interviews produced a Celtic alignment:
at the interview there were four of us, one, two, three, four, there was a Welsh girl, Irish girl, English girl … we were each interviewed and I came out and said I’ve just messed that interview up, deliberately I said, I don’t want to work for that headteacher, I don’t want to work for that headteacher, and there was an Irish Catholic girl there and a Welsh girl, and we sat there and we shook 'cause we didn’t want this job … And then this very sort of wimpish looking English girl, she, she got it, so we went great, let’s go to the pub, we shot off to the pub and the Welsh girl said to me well I’m teaching at a school not very far away from here and we’re looking for new staff, why don’t you come along? If you come along I’ll stay 'cause, you know, we got on very well, and the, so we said our goodbyes to the Roman Catholic Irish girl and off we went to meet her head teacher in one of the toughest schools in west London.Footnote 94
Similarly, Julie recalled how English attitudes to Northern Ireland in the teacher’s staff room fostered a sense of affinity with other Irish-born teachers:
I mean, of the antagonism, teaching practice, second or third year teaching practice staffroom, male teacher walks in after a bomb, oh he said, knowing where I came from, at the top of his voice, I really think they ought to take Northern Ireland and sink it to the bottom of the Irish Sea, so I got some of that sort of comment. A teacher I worked with said to me you see this ring I’m wearing, what’s that? And he said it’s my cousin’s ring, he was in the army, he was killed by the IRA, kind of you’re lucky I’m actually speaking to you. Another occasion, headteacher called me in, he said we’ve got a new supply teacher and I said yes, I’ve met her, he said she’s from the south of Ireland, I said yes, I know, he said I don’t want any trouble, I don’t want any trouble, I said well there’s not going to be any trouble, I said we’ve got more in common, I’ve got more in common with her than I have with you, which didn’t go down too well, and we met up in the ladies and went oh, for heaven’s sake, so, so you were in this uncomfortable place where people didn’t exactly blame you but they looked at you sometimes as if you’d got two heads, you know, what’s, what’s going on? Footnote 95
Julie’s narration of these episodes as formative of an Irish self constitutes a distinctive response to the peculiar problems of cultural adjustment negotiated by Protestant migrants in England. Recurring throughout Julie’s memories of her early teaching career, these stories of initial adaption document how processes of cultural stereotyping could foster investments in Irishness as a means of making sense of subjectively destabilizing aspects of everyday adjustment. In this they suggest how, within particular contexts, the impacts of the Troubles in England could enhance a sense of Irish belonging on the part of Protestants routinely misrecognized as Irish within English culture.
At the same time, however, the manner of Julie’s mobilization of distinctively Celtic formulations also registers a highly performative dimension to memory composure within her account. While her memories of cultural encounter show how Irishness could be employed to make sense of experiences of “othering,” they also dramatize instances of English-Irish antagonism to project and perform a conspicuously stylized form of Celtic belonging based on themes of subalternity, rebelliousness, and cavalier non-conformity. In this, they endeavor to authenticate a claim to Irish belonging and so express a desire to be recognized as Irish.
This desire for recognition alludes to the articulation of a second dynamic regarding Julie’s engagement with Irishness within her interview. Where Irishness is associated with self-realization in relation to English attitudes during her early years of settlement, at other points in her narrative Irishness appears as something denied or unattainable. In these memories, the Troubles is portrayed, not as something that binds Irish people together in England, but as a source of dissonance within efforts to compose a coherent version of Irish selfhood.
In some stories this dissonance is linked with how English perceptions of the Troubles generalized the tribalism of Northern Irish society. Although Julie emphasized how moving to England accentuated her sense of Irishness, she also stressed the culturally hybrid character of her “liberal” middle-class Protestant childhood in Northern Ireland in order to demonstrate that her Irishness had deeper roots:
We were blended Irish, we loved Ireland and I mean, you don’t know this but we went to the south of Ireland for our holidays and my father went down to watch the rugby, my mother got engaged in Dublin, it wasn’t a, it wasn’t, we lived with what it was and we were wary of the extremes on both sides but we didn’t, you know, it’s difficult to describe to people today, they don’t understand, in fact English people used to think I had grown up from the age of one in the Troubles, it didn’t dawn on them when I went to England. Footnote 96
As Julie suggests, however, in England such forms of “blended” Irishness were largely invisible. While Julie found herself categorized as Irish in some contexts, binary perceptions of the sectarian nature of the Troubles could also work to obscure or negate the ways in which pre-conflict narratives of Protestant belonging might articulate British and Irish identifications simultaneously. This negation was apparent in the attitudes of work colleagues, but it was often most pronounced in relation to nationalistic Irish people resident in England. While Julie usually presented her relations with other Irish migrants as filial and fraternal, she also made three references to encounters with a “second-generation Catholic Irish chap” who challenged her family’s right to reside on the island of Ireland:
in my travels over the years I would meet, from time to time, a second-generation Catholic Irish chap and some of them were bitter and they told me, you know, what are you doing in, what are your family doing in our country sort of thing, very second-generation, again they didn’t quite understand it either but they had this sort of resentment which had seeped in from somewhere, so it’s, I suppose it’s just always there if you meet somebody new.Footnote 97
As such reflections suggest, Julie’s sense of the occlusive aspects of English perceptions were imaginatively connected with a more general anxiety concerning the wider discursive impacts of the Troubles for the definition of Irishness. Her reference to the “bitterness” and “resentment” of the stereotypical “second-generation Catholic Irish chap” here tacitly alludes to her wider understanding of the Troubles as an apocalyptic event that radically intensified sectarian animosities. Although Julie “never” called herself “a unionist or a loyalist,”Footnote 98 she regarded the Troubles as an abomination that, driven by self-interested “crooks” seeking to “bully their way through,” hijacked the development of an emerging liberal consciousness among “educated middle-class Catholics and Protestants”Footnote 99 and ultimately “destroyed a country.”Footnote 100 Contrasting her religiously mixed bohemian lifestyle in pre-Troubles Belfast with the fear-wracked society that emerged after 1969, Julie explained how the escalation of the conflict destroyed trust between communities, closing down space for social interaction and the hybridization of cultures. In relation to her own personal history, she recalled how the conflict obliterated the local Belfast folk scene and scattered her circle of “arty farty”Footnote 101 friends via emigration, and how her younger sisters, unlike herself, “wouldn’t mix” with Catholics as the violence intensified. This latter aversion evolved in response to fears for the safety of their father, who was subjected to persistent paramilitary intimidation due to his employment as a civil servant in the local magistrate’s office.Footnote 102
Over the course of Julie’s account of settlement, the polarizing legacies of this history of ethnic violence gradually surfaced via the articulation of a sense of grievance and dispossession. This was expressed via acknowledgment of intense feelings of hatred toward militant republicans:
well I’ll tell you what I did think, each time a certain person came on the television, and to this day I will turn it off, and that’s emotional, any representatives of what was the IRA and then became Sinn Féin or, yeah, I just turn them off, I couldn’t bear to listen, I couldn’t bear to see them, no control, you see, over it.Footnote 103
It manifested most clearly, however, in expressions of unbelonging that signaled Julie’s ultimate failure to locate terms for the composure of a coherent version of Irish selfhood. In the last instance, reflections upon the Troubles engender dissonance within Julie’s account because they disclose the supreme difficulty of securing recognition for a culturally “blended” history given the post-conflict entrenchment of ethnicized narratives of communal belonging in Northern Ireland. Militant republicanism is singled out as the most threatening aspect of the conflict for Julie precisely because its violence was predicated on a racialist reading of Irish history, which insisted upon the absolute separation of British colonizers and Irish natives, and that identified Ulster Protestants as cultural outsiders. Acknowledging the powerful influence of this exclusivist narrative upon vernacular constructions of ethnic Irishness, Julie is led to imagine that the “Northern Irish” are neither English nor Irish:
what I want to do is let’s get together a history that makes the Northern Irish feel valued for what they are instead of what they are not, because basically over the last thirty years it’s been you are not English, you are not Irish, you are a funny little group of people that don’t fit in anywhere. Footnote 104
These reflections upon the implications of the Troubles bring into clear view the full complexity of the process of subjective composure at work within Julie’s migration story. On arrival in England, the initial disjunctures of the settlement process challenged her understanding of her place within the British family, prompting a gravitation toward Irishness as a solution to the problem of belonging. Celticism here supplied a resource for making sense of destabilizing experiences of “culture shock,” and of composing a relation of subjective continuity between hybrid forms of pre- and post-migration selfhood. The problem, however, is that ultimately Julie was not able to insulate the identifications fostered through these post-migration experiences from the wider cultural implications of the Troubles as an event that fundamentally challenged her ability to claim even a hybridized Irish heritage. As for other Northern Irish migrants, the Troubles traveled with Julie to England, but in her case the implications pertained to a sense of dispossession related to the polarizing logic of ethnic violence: where processes of “othering” in England pushed Julie toward the embrace of an Irish identity, the wider ethnicization of Irishness as part of the Troubles subverted this development, radically restricting Julie’s capacity to understand and represent herself as authentically Irish.
The outcome is that by the end of the interview Julie has begun to reorient her quest for authentication away from the English-Irish dichotomy toward an alternative aspiration for resynthesis:
I’ve managed to do it, OK I’ve got German as well, but I’ve managed to do it and it’s made me feel ten times better, and I’m seeing Irish history through, through my families which have lived here for five hundred years and seeing what that is and I don’t know if there’s, I know there’s some work going on in Northern Ireland on it, I know there’s some work going on, but it needs to be a heck of a lot more for people to be proud of the fact that, although yeah the English did a terrible thing in Ireland, but actually some of the migrants who came in contributed a good deal as well, and yeah that’s it really.Footnote 105
As Julie explains, following her retirement she has used some of her free time to further investigate the question of where she belongs by “going into the DNA and Irish history.”Footnote 106 This genealogical inquiry has enabled her “to feel ten times better” because it has opened a way of reading the past that establishes both the longevity of her family’s presence in Ireland and the integral role of ongoing migration and exchange between Britain, Ireland, and Europe in syncretizing Ireland’s biological and cultural heritage. Retirement and the popular availability of new technologies of historical consciousness have thus initiated a new phase of (re)composure at the tail end of the migration journey: if the dichotomy of native/colonizer continues to frustrate Julie’s quest for authenticity, genealogical inquiry appears to make possible the excavation of a mongrel history that mirrors back and affirms impurity as the leitmotif of a distinctive “Northern Irish” experience, and that establishes a different kind of origin story on which to rest a claim to belonging.
Conclusion: Alterity, Relationality and the Troubles in Late-Imperial Britain
For Northern Irish Protestants who left home during the period of the Troubles, migration to England often raised ontological questions. While many assumed they were settling among a historical community of “kinsfolk,” everyday encounters with popular English perceptions of Northern Ireland frequently suggested otherwise. When David Anderson left for Liverpool in 1988 he imagined English people would “be like me,” but, having “discovered” that the English did not really “want us,” he came to realize he was “not like British people in Britain”: England was the scene, not of a family reunion, but of a journey of revelation and self-interrogation, prompting reflection upon “what” he is and “where” he belonged.Footnote 107
In part, these journeys of self-interrogation reflected the unsettling impacts of the Troubles upon English self-perceptions. Protestant migrants in England discovered that the English did not really “want” them because the conflict in Northern Ireland fueled and was interpreted through wider postcolonial anxieties concerning social disintegration, popular disenfranchisement, and national decline. The history of Ulster Protestant subjectivities in England here registers the deeper cultural impacts of the Troubles in Britain, showing how the postwar implosion of Greater Britishness shaped aversion to the conflict, and revealing how the popular disavowal of Northern Ireland developed as a key cultural legacy of this process. The life histories of Protestant migrants thus suggest new ways of situating the Troubles within the historiography of postwar Britain by showing how the conflict was constitutive of the arguments that divided English society in the 1970s and 1980s, and of the recalibrated forms of national self-perception that crystalized as an outcome.
Yet, if Protestant histories help illuminate the shared cultural conflicts of English society in this period, they also point to the complexity of their experiential effects. While the ontological insecurity expressed in David Anderson’s account was common to most, if not all, Protestant narratives, this instability was experienced and negotiated in different ways by differently situated migrants. The manner in which migrants constituted themselves as subjects of belonging was not determined by the popular disavowal of Northern Ireland, but by how this fact was interpreted and incorporated within the context of composing individually specific histories of the self. This specificity reflected the particularities of individual migrant histories and the contexts created for recomposing the self via the migration process, but it was also dynamically produced via the workings of personal memory. The dynamic force of memory here lay in its dual role as a transmission belt that extended the subjective impacts of migrants’ earlier lives as children of the Troubles into routines of cultural adaptation in England, and as a process of retrospective evaluation by which these legacies were resignified in response to new life experiences and major lifecycle transitions. Given the complexly articulated character of these relations, migrants’ subjective responses to the impacts of the Troubles in England were necessarily diverse and mutative, giving rise to distinctive personal solutions to multi-sided dilemmas of belonging.
What does thinking about historical subjectivities in these terms add to critical understanding of the recent history of British-Irish relations? Beyond registering the importance of internal decolonization for understanding Britain’s experience of the Troubles, historicizing the relational constitution of subjectivities illuminates the deep roots of Northern Ireland’s cultural estrangement in contemporary England while shedding a complex light on the human impacts of the conflict and the ways these mutate over time, across space, between cultures, and through life experiences. With particular reference to the impacts of the Troubles upon the Irish diaspora in Britain, the dynamic shaping of Protestant subjectivities illuminates the critical limits of binary emphases on ethnic antagonism and “suspect communities,” illustrating the need for more sophisticated research questions concerning both English responses to the conflict and the subjective processes by which Irish people interpreted their own experiences. A history that centers the articulation of these elements holds out the prospect of a more nuanced and comprehensive assessment of the human legacies of the Troubles, not only for English society and people of Irish heritage resident in England at the time, but for individuals and communities affected by the conflict more broadly.
What such a history in turn alludes to are the general possibilities of a multi-relational perspective for thinking through critical questions concerning the representation and analytic labor of “identities” within historical accounts of the Troubles and the wider contemporary history of British “multiculturalism.” The tendency to treat bounded communities as protagonists in both contexts simplifies how historical subjects experienced the past, skews explanations of historical process, and restricts the possibilities for historical interpretation. A multi-relational analysis pluralizes the past, not only by diversifying the standpoints from which it is experienced, but by bringing into focus the creative evolution of subjectivities, showing how they work through contradiction, ambivalence, and silence, and how they embed complex possibilities for feeling, thinking, and acting at any given time. In this, the analysis developed above presents a suggestive framework for reading reflexive individuality back into histories of “ethnic identity,” and for revealing the unpredictable work of alterity in shaping “how newness enters the world.”Footnote 108
Acknowledgements
The authors would like to thank the Arts and Humanities Research Council for funding the project on which this article is based and the Blair Chair, Institute of Irish Studies, for covering copyright costs. We would also like to thank the JBS reviewers and editors for their careful reading and comments. Please address correspondence to barry.hazley@liverpool.ac.uk
Barry Hazley is Lecturer in contemporary British and Irish history in the Institute of Irish Studies, University of Liverpool.
Jack Crangle is Lecturer in contemporary British history in the Department of History, Queens University Belfast.
Graham Dawson is Visiting Professor in the International Conflict Research Institute, University of Ulster.
Liam Harte is Professor of Irish Literature in the Department of English and American Studies, University of Manchester.
Fearghus Roulston is Chancellor’s Fellow in the History of Activism, University of Strathclyde.