I. Valuing and Acting on Oneself

Consider the broad and varied set of changes that a person may undergo over the course of her life: changes in appearance, knowledge, interests, citizenship, family relationships, and so on. Within this set, I want to make two distinctions that are orthogonal to one another. First, I distinguish those changes that consist in or involve a change in what the person values, from those that do not. Second, I distinguish the changes that the person makes in herself, from changes she does not author but only passively undergoes.

I will call changes that implicate values “transformations,” and my interest is in the subset of those changes that are the work of the person herself, which I will call “self-transformations.” I will, in turn, want to further subdivide the category of self-transformation, but before doing so let me say a word about the first two distinctions.

II. Self-Transformation

Now consider those changes that are both active and transformative — changes I am calling “self-transformations.” Take the case of quitting vegetarianism. On a visit to my extended family in Hungary, I came to see my repeated vegetarian refusals of the food they had prepared — which, given the national cuisine, invariably included meat — as violating my commitment to be a good guest. I decided that my valuation of hospitality called for me to change my eating habits. Dispositions to act are the most natural place for such changes to take root, but they will often involve more than that. I came fairly quickly to think that hospitality required more of me than merely getting the food down: on my view, a good guest takes pleasure in what she is offered. Thus, I sought to change my affective response to meat as well as my behavioral disposition. The important fact, however, is that these changes were wholly dependent on my established values. Before ever considering the question of meat-eating specifically, I already valued hospitality, which is to say that I had the cognitive, motivational, affective and reflexive responses constitutive of such valuing.

We can also imagine cases in which I am required to revise beliefs in the light of my values. For instance, I might reflect on the fact that I tend to belittle my political opponents, and judge that my valuation of democracy requires me to give up the belief that people of a certain political party are uneducated or unpatriotic. There will also be cases in which my value calls for belief-acquisition rather than loss. For instance, I am advising a dissertation that touches on Kierkegaard, whose work I’m only minimally acquainted with. I may take myself to be required to do some reading in order to learn what Kierkegaard thinks, so that I’m in a better position to evaluate my student’s work.

Though it is true that what we have reason to do depends on our beliefs, emotions, desires, and habits, we are not hostage to the attitudes with which we happen to find ourselves. A person can make a choice about the kind of person she wants to become, on the basis of an antecedent appreciation of the value of being that person. She judges that some important feature of herself — such as her commitment to be a good guest among meat-lovers, or her investment in democracy, or her devotion to her advisee — is in tension with some other feature of herself, such as her vegetarianism, her political attitudes, or her ignorance about Kierkegaard. Holding the first feature fixed, she decides to change with respect to the second. I now want to contend that not all self-transformations work like this.

III. Aspiration

In my early twenties, I entered a doctoral program in Classics at Berkeley. Classicists are proficient translators of Greek and Latin; they produce interpretations of these texts that shape the way other people go on to read them; and they teach students to read Latin and Greek. What did I, as a senior in college, hope to gain out of those activities? If you had asked me, I think I would have probably said something vague about wanting “a fulfilling life.” I would have had to be vague, because any fulfillment I could envision from those activities amounted to a very different kind of fulfillment from what I had already experienced. The truth is that I didn’t know exactly what I wanted. I could see something good about the life of a classicist, enough to want to learn more. Instead of seeing my antecedent interests, values, and projects as dictating the change toward classics, it was the value of classics that dictated my attitude toward many of my “old” projects, values, desires, and habits. I was ready and willing to try to turn my life in a new and uncharted direction.

I would not, however, have said at the time that I had “decided” to become a classicist. That would have struck me as hubris, given how incompletely I grasped the value of what I was doing. But I also wasn’t experimenting, trying a career on for size in the way you might try out a new flavor of ice cream or an amusement park ride or vacation destination. I was trying to come to like it, setting before myself the task of liking it, striving to learn what the value of it was. I fought through thousands of pages of translation; I composed Greek prose in the style of Herodotus, Demosthenes, and Plato; I wrote about symbolism in Horatian Odes; I memorized dates and places for history exams; I learned Italian so that I could go to Rome to speak Latin, to say out loud Cicero’s words in the places where he had stood. All of this was work and not play or fun or experimentation, and I was working toward a kind of insight that was, in fact, in the better moments of my brief and doomed career as a classicist, starting to dawn on me. I became a citizen of a place that vanished thousands of years ago. Walking among the stalls of tie-dyed T-shirts on Telegraph avenue, a part of me wasn’t there at all. I felt the freedom and power of carrying a whole world in me; and not just any world but one in which I could see people discovering for themselves ideas of truthfulness, justice, courage, beauty. Another feeling I remember vividly from that time is gratitude. Generation after generation of scribes had, as I saw it, copied those manuscripts for me, so that I could eventually read them. And this gratitude gave rise to a sense of responsibility: I too was a kind of scribe, tasked with keeping these texts available to and relevant for a new generation. This was the way in which the value of becoming a classicist began to reveal itself to me.

IV. Aspiration versus Self-cultivation

Compare my self-transformation into someone who values eating meat with my self-transformation into someone who values Classics. In the first case, I was working through the entailments of the value-system I already had. In this way, the unchanging attitudes comprising my valuation of hospitality were driving the show. I was motivated by my belief in the value of hospitality, my desire to be a good guest, my sensitivity to my hosts’ disappointment, and so on. In the second case, the engine of the process was the very set of beliefs, desires and affective conditions I sought to acquire. The point of what I was doing was coming to see the value of, and care about, a set of texts. Unlike my appetite for meat, my appetite for Classics is one I acquired for its own sake. When someone transforms herself as I did by quitting vegetarianism, I will call the change self-cultivation. When someone transforms herself as I did by setting out to become a classicist, I will call the change aspiration.

Let me offer a few more examples to flesh out the categories of self-cultivation and aspiration, since the claim that these are two real but importantly distinct forms of self-transformation is the argumentative backbone of this essay. One common form that self-cultivation takes is an agent noticing in herself problematic or self-destructive qualities: she spends too much money; she overeats; she habitually levels casual insults at her in-laws; she procrastinates. Recognizing these facts about herself, and that they are in tension with her central values, she might set out to change them. She develops a distaste for procrastination instead of seeing it as a charming peccadillo; she starts taking pride in her expertise about internet-blocking software. She might also set out to acquire projects, habits, skills, or desires. A larger vocabulary will help her get through translation exercises faster; regular jogging will increase her energy levels; pet-ownership will help combat depression; calling her mother and best friend once a week will keep those relationships in better order; cultivating pleasant relations with her in-laws will make everyone’s lives run more smoothly.

The essential feature of self-cultivation is that, though the change itself may take time, the self-cultivator can see in advance just what is to be gained by it. This is because she already has whatever value the change serves. She isn’t changing in that respect. The self-cultivator can step back from the way she currently is, reflect on what she wants out of life, and make an informed choice about how to change. The fact that she doesn’t take pleasure in exercise or know how to speed-read doesn’t keep her from understanding exactly what would be good about doing so.

Aspirational pursuits, by contrast, feature agents who must be more tentative, because they are less sure that they know what they are getting themselves into. Consider two stylized examples. Bill has never been a fan of classical music, but at some point he starts to open himself up to it: he takes a music appreciation class, he listens to one piece every night before going to bed, he buys an annual subscription to the symphony. His immersion in classical music neither supports his other pursuits, nor is entailed by his other values. He doesn’t think that by coming to appreciate music he will be less stressed out at work, or that it will help him curry favor or appear sophisticated. In fact, the classes and tickets and equipment take time, energy and money away from the set of projects he was pursuing. He could say that his efforts are directed at the intrinsic value of music, but his words will have a hollow ring. For he does not yet appreciate this value.

Sheila, who has been single for a long time, decides to start dating. She makes an effort to, as they say, put herself out there. She does not do this because she finds herself unable to occupy her evenings, or because she finds her work unfulfilling; she does not take the plot of her life to call for someone in the role of partner. Her life is, on its own terms, complete. But she has the sense that those terms might themselves be a bit narrow, and an inchoate understanding of a form of value that is out there for her to discover and enjoy. Her romantic project does not promote what she already valued anyway. She orients herself toward a new value, and one she seeks to acquire for its own sake — not because it will serve something she valued before. If asked, she’d have to admit that she’s not sure what she has to gain.

The self-cultivator sees the changes she is enacting in herself as entailed by the fixed value-condition she is already in. Her “change” therefore amounts to a consolidation of the self she already has. The aspirant, by contrast, sets out to acquire a way of being that need not serve, and may well clash with, her pre-existing values. Given the intimate connection between what a person values and who she is, we can say she is in search of a new self. We can also articulate the difference with reference to the values contained in the new condition. The aspirant sets out to acquire new beliefs, desires, emotions, and so on, for their own sakes, that is, for the sake of the value that is comprised of those attitudes, whereas the self-cultivator sets out to acquire them because she sees them as serving her antecedently fixed valuational condition.

V. The Possibility of Aspiration?

In cases of self-cultivation, I encounter an opportunity to incorporate some new area of agency into a standing value nexus. Even if they do not explicitly articulate the position, many philosophers are committed to thinking that the only alternative to this form of self-change is being changed. They assume that unless someone can derive an attitudinal change from the values she already has, the change cannot be rational.

In my book Aspiration, I articulate three areas of ethics in which the temptation to exclude the very possibility of aspiration manifests itself: decision theory, moral psychology, and the theory of moral responsibility. Let me briefly summarize the first, so as to give the reader a sense of how the topic of aspiration fits into the existing philosophical literature. In the decision-theoretic literature, we find agents described not in terms of values but in terms of preferences. So we can say that the aspirant and the self-cultivator are both on their way to acquiring new preferences, but the latter is distinguished by the fact that she currently has a full-fledged preference to have those new preferences. The aspirant won’t know exactly what preferences she is acquiring or exactly why those are good preferences to have; and if, as often occurs, her aspirational activity results in a change to her core preferences, it will not usually be the best way to maximize the satisfaction of her standing (antecedent) preferences. How, then, can it be rational?

Edna Ullmann-Margalit^{Footnote 12} thinks that it cannot. She argues that an agent who must decide whether to engage in some activity that will foreseeably alter her core preferences — such as having a child, getting married, or emigrating from one’s homeland — faces a choice that “straddles two discontinuous personalities with two different rationality bases.”^{Footnote 13} She contends that any claim as to which way the agent should go will arbitrarily privilege one of the two sets of reasons.^{Footnote 14} On this picture, if the value in question is truly new, one cannot rationally come to acquire it.^{Footnote 15} L. A. Paul argues, on similar grounds, that someone who wants to have a child but cannot do so is irrational if she grieves this fact.^{Footnote 16} In my book, I make the case against Paul and Ullmann-Margalit by describing the rational structure of the process governing one’s transition to motherhood, or becoming a citizen of another country.^{Footnote 17} In place of that argument, what I am going to offer here is an example of aspiration.

The reader may wonder why I am adding to the examples I have already offered of myself as proto-classicist, of Bill’s foray into music, of Sheila’s romantic aspirations. The problem is that examples are prone to collapse under theoretical pressure. If one’s interlocutor is not inclined to acknowledge some phenomenon, she will simply re-interpret purported examples of it. So, for instance, if I point out that Sheila, Bill, and I do not derive the end-state from our earlier value condition, the interlocutor will point out that I went to graduate school with some appreciation for classics; likewise, mutatis mutandis, for Bill and Sheila. She will be inclined to say that my (weak, incipient) appreciation of classics explains my further progress in just the way that my appreciation of hospitality explains my coming to eat meat. I will reply that the aspirant’s actions are “grounded” in her antecedent appreciation of value in the way that someone is grounded in the spongy mud of a swamp. She reaches toward the stable, fixed value condition on which the self-cultivator rests comfortably from the outset. When interlocutor rightly demands that I cash out this metaphor, I cannot merely reiterate the distinction between the original acquisition of a value-nexus, and the extrapolation or extension of an already established valuation. For the stubborn interlocutor simply denies that there is a principled distinction to be drawn there: she insists that either the agent has a firm enough value-basis to move forward, or what happens to her is not something she does. How can we convince her that she must make space between these options?

It might seem, then, that we can make no progress with examples until we carefully unpack the assumptions underwriting the interlocutor’s unwillingness to admit a third way. But I think that is not the case, because examples are not all made equal. In the remainder of this essay, I will discuss an example that is especially resistant to the reinterpretative gambit, because it is in a certain sense paradigmatically aspirational: liberal arts education. I will show that if we take ourselves to be forced to choose between modeling college education as passive and modeling it as self-cultivation, we will introduce a recognizable distortion of the phenomenon.

VI. The Parental Model

What are college students after? What do they hope to get out of the classes they take from philosophers such as myself, or from my colleagues in English, history, mathematics, and so on? Consider two models that we might apply to students’ engagement with the value of the education they receive in college.

The first model is the parental model. On this model, a student needn’t have access to what is valuable about the education she receives. The principal authors of her transformation are the teachers and administrators who have their eye on the prize. The parental model presents the acquisition of whatever is valuable about a liberal arts education as a form of passivity. The students are changed but do not change themselves. This model may be a good fit for much, if not all, of the education that one receives before attending college. As Harry Brighouse brings out in his defense of schooling directed at “human flourishing,” the parental model is an appropriate attitude toward children:

It is striking that Brighouse portrays teachers and parents as the ones who “use the time” that students spend in school. Are such students passive recipients of their education? Children must show up to class, participate in discussions, complete assignments, and so forth, else they will get no benefit from the time spent in school. In defense of Brighouse, we can point out that a student may be motivated to act in ways conducive to her acquiring an education not because she understands the value of doing so, but partly by authority (students trust and respect their teachers), partly by compulsion (students must attend school), partly from enjoyment (well-designed assignments can be pleasant), and partly by reward (parents and teachers find ways to associate positive outcomes with academic success). On the parental model, the students themselves don’t need to understand the values they are to acquire; that understanding has been delegated to the parents, teachers, school administrators, and policymakers who are in charge of the process of educating them. And these people may, indeed, know better “what should happen to them than they do themselves.” But only temporarily.

High school students typically experience alienation from school, finding that it regulates their lives in ways that can strike them as arbitrary and stifling. They rebel against parental, academic, and other authorities, asserting their need to make choices about how to live their own lives. In this period of life, a person begins to age out of being, as it were, the patient of her own education. The parental model seems most appropriate to elementary school, and positively inappropriate — disrespectful — by the time a person enters college. It would be both false and offensive for me to claim that I know better than my students what constitutes for them a happy and flourishing life. Even if we suppose that my years of study and life experience give me a better general conception of what a happy or meaningful or flourishing life is, I cannot claim the authority to think through the meaning of my students’ lives on their behalf.

If education is to outstrip childhood, we need a nonparental model for the later stretches of the educational process. This is to say that we need a model where the agent herself is at the helm of the educational process by which she changes. For only a nonparental model will pay proper respect to the student as someone whose place it is to govern her own acquisition of knowledge, desires, interests, habits, and, most importantly, values. She may do a poor job of it, at least at first, but it is not a job anyone can do for her.

VII. The Consumer Model

An alternative model, one to which a young adult may herself be drawn,^{Footnote 19} is to think of herself as a consumer in relation to her education. Our students do, after all, “shop” for classes which, if they take, they can go on to review; these reviews are sometimes accessible online, presumably to assist others who are trying to determine whether to make the same “purchase.” And these students, or their parents, have indeed paid a high price for the courses they take from us. Given that they often go deep into debt in the process, it is not unreasonable that they should demand to acquire their money’s worth.

The problem with the consumer model is that it presupposes that students enter college already in possession of exactly what they attend college to get. Consider what makes someone an ideal or excellent consumer: such a person does not go to the supermarket for milk and come home with magazines; she buys a car for its automotive properties, and because of how it looks or what her neighbors think;^{Footnote 20} she has done her research, and she is also self-informed — she must know her own needs and desires in order to gauge which purchases would serve her well. She enters the store armed with a schema that her purchase must fit, and she will not spend money until she can be fairly certain, in advance, that she has lit upon something that satisfies this schema. She grasps the value of what she is getting before she gets it. When she gets it, she therefore experiences satisfaction, a kind of match or fit between what she thought she was going to get and what she in fact ended up getting. What makes an ideal consumer ideal is that she is informed. She knows what she wants, and she knows what kinds of things are available to satisfy those wants. She is, then, full of knowledge about her own values, needs and desires, and about what the world has on offer to address them. But our students go to college precisely in order to acquire this knowledge.

When one teaches art history or physics or French at the college level, one is trying to give students access to a distinct domain of aesthetic, scientific, or literary value. We aren’t selling them something they already want; instead, we are trying to help them learn to want something, or to strengthen and deepen a pre-existing but weak desire. We teach them to demand more, of life and of themselves, than they would otherwise have done. We help them see what is out there on offer, and what they themselves want and need. As a result, they (hopefully) become informed consumers. And this suggests that they cannot already be informed consumers when we first meet them.

The fact that liberal arts education is predicated on the uninformedness of the consumer is an indication that the consumer model distorts the students’ activity. It distorts that of the teacher as well, discouraging her from acknowledging the distinctive kind of benefit she provides. She is there to change how the student sees things rather than to help him get what he can already see that he wants. Must we, then revert to the parental model, and treat them as children who are not in a position to govern their own choices and actions? I believe there is a third option.

VIII. Students as Aspirants

Recall the distinction between those changes that are wrought by the agent herself, and those that are products of environmental influences. The parental model suggests that education belongs in the latter category: the student is passive in relation to the change of becoming educated. On the consumer model, students are active in the mode of self-cultivation: they are in school because they recognize just what is to be gained from each educational choice. The suggestion I want to make is that the right model for higher education is the aspirational model. What the possibility of aspiration reveals is that there is some space between a condition in which other people are rightly in charge of your agency and development, and a condition in which you know what’s good for you. For the aspirant, learning what is good for herself is her own work.

The concept of aspiration gives us a way of modeling the work we do in helping our students as something other than a form of service to needs that are fully independent of that work. Aspirants are characteristically needy and vulnerable, because they are guided by a sense of value on which they have only a tenuous grip. They reach out for mentors, not because they want to farm out the activity of grasping the value of their own pursuits to someone else, but because they cannot do it alone. The aspirant feels, all the time, that her grip on the value of what she is doing is tenuous. She is hungry for more, self-critical, vulnerable to others’ assessments as to whether she is getting it right. At the same time she strives to free herself from needing their help, from caring what they think of her. Her vulnerability should not be confused with childishness: it calls for a courageous self-awareness of weakness that marks adulthood. She hasn’t committed to turning her life in some pre-approved direction. She is expending considerable resources stretching herself hopefully toward something she grasps only through a glass darkly, all too aware of the danger that she may be left empty-handed.

Though they know that they do not know, our students also insist that the meaning of what they are learning is theirs to discover. They are not and should not be willing to entrust to us the project of becoming someone new. If we see them as aspirants, we can see how much they need our help, while at the same time recognizing that the form of help they are seeking is compatible with respecting them as self-shaping adults.

Some years after graduating from college, I asked the best teacher I ever had why she stopped teaching the course I first took with her. She said that she stops teaching a book when she feels she knows it too well to be curious about what other people have to say about it. That response helped me to understand why the experience of being her student was, above all, the experience of being listened to, as though I were a font of answers to life’s great questions. She would stare intently at me while I spoke, and often her reply would take the form of a two word command: “Another sentence.” My first reaction was always panic. I would think to myself, I’ve said all I had to say. To my own surprise, the words would come, I would draw out the sentence that I didn’t know was in me. It would have been unthinkable to demand that her class serve any desire or need I had before I entered it; but I also couldn’t see her as an authority figure, not when she was taking what I said so seriously. She wasn’t forcing or even suggesting that I become anything; she was somehow enabling me to hold myself up to the set of standards that I was just beginning to recognize as my own. I would not be the person that I am without her. But she did not make me who I am. Though our teachers may draw it out from us, that next sentence expresses our thought and not theirs.

IX. Pure Aspiration?

There is an important difference between the examples of aspiration with which I began — my pursuit of classics, Sheila’s foray into dating, Bill’s quest to appreciate classical music — and the case I have leveraged those examples to analyze. Though Sheila and Bill and I did not begin our aspirational journey with a full grasp of the value we sought to come to appreciate, we would have been able to say from the start what value we were hunting. The processes by which the three of us came to arrive at or near our goals have the rational structure they do because we directed them, from the outset, at some definite target: Classics, romance, music. I may not have known the value of classics, but I did know that it was the value of classics that I was after. If my target had radically shifted, say from classics to music, or from music to romance, it would not have seemed right to describe me as engaged in an aspirational project. The agent who shifts from classics to romance to music seems to be drifting rather than working to make systematic progress along an aspirational trajectory. And the agent who is trying to “find herself” without having any sense of whether she is trying to find a self interested in classics, romance, or music seems to be flailing rather than aspiring.

The problem is that the college experience is characterized by just such shifting and uncertainty. In the good case, students leave college with a deeper grasp of some intrinsic value(s) than they had at the outset. As a result of their time in college, something matters to them that didn’t matter to them as much, or at all, before. But did they go off to college in order to come into contact with those very values? In many cases, no. I endeavor to bring it about that my students leave college with some appreciation for and interest in philosophy — but many of them had not even heard of the subject before entering college. A fortiori, they didn’t come to college in order to study it. And even in cases where the student did enter with the relevant passion, they often enter with many such passions, and little, or a mistaken, view as to which they will end up deepening.^{Footnote 21}

When I changed my undergraduate major from physics to classics, I did not experience this change as a breaking off and restarting my college education. By contrast, when I switched from a Classics PhD program to one in philosophy, I did experience a break in my professional training. Though the subjects, especially given my own specialization, were much closer to one another, the switch meant that I left a program training me to become a classicist and entered one that trained me to become a philosopher. Graduate education does not have the flexibility to accommodate such shifts in one’s aspirational target. Undergraduate education, by contrast, can allow for shifts away from the academic domain altogether, into theater or activism or sports; even time spent working through romantic entanglements can be a profitable element of the college journey. An event that would mark the termination of the graduate student’s (or romance seeker’s, or would-be music lover’s) aspiration is but a shift within the career of the undergraduate’s.

A. Bartlett Giamatti’s^{Footnote 22} address to the incoming class at Yale beautifully captures this peculiar condition of aspirational uncertainty:

Giamatti’s description may strike some as pious and high-minded; to others, it may be a reminder of the privilege experienced by the very few undergrads who are in a position to attend elite institutions such as Yale. To me, it rings true, at least as a description of my better moments as a student and a teacher; and I readily grant that one should be grateful to have teachers and students that afford one even so much as glimpse into such a process. My experience aside, I cannot know whether the phenomenon Giamatti describes is typical of what happens at colleges across the United States; I have no doubt that the freedom to engage in such a process, which must turn a deaf ear to worldly demands for predictable advances and fungible value, is associated with many forms of privilege. My interest is not in the empirical question of how often this ideal of liberal learning is instantiated, or even in whether it is the ideal of liberal learning. My interest is in how what Giamatti describes is so much as conceptually coherent. Even those who would decry it as the wrong ideal or a bastion of economic and social privilege seem to admit this much. For they do not fail to understand what he is talking about. And that is already a remarkable fact.

Recall Bill. He becomes someone who loves music, and he takes a musical journey, and he learns to think about music. In the case of the college student attending Giamatti’s lecture, we may well be unable to fill in the corresponding blanks. We regularly describe college as a place where people learn how to think (about what?) or a place of personal development (into what?) or as an intellectual journey (whither?). This is, to adapt a line of thought from David Velleman, like saying that if college were a game, its goal would be winning; or that if it were a hunt, its goal would be the quarry; or that if college were a question, its goal would be to find the answer.^{Footnote 24} Velleman insists that an activity-description that invokes only such a formal or generic object is incomplete, or in Velleman’s phrase, not “fully constituted.”^{Footnote 25} Just as Velleman would correct the game-player who says her goal is winning — “that’s the goal of every game, what’s the goal of this one?” — he would have to correct the description of the college student as becoming someone or acquiring new values or learning how to think. He would demand that we supply the more specific goal and value by which to assess her aspirational success.

Velleman’s demand is not unreasonable. If her aspirations get her anywhere, she does end up having satisfied a far more specific goal than that of value-acquisition in general. But that goal needn’t be one she could articulate at the outset. We must distinguish between an activity-description that is incomplete because it adopts too general a level of description (“What are you doing?” “Something”), and one that is incomplete because it describes only the beginning of a long process. If we fail to make this distinction, we will think that incompleteness always calls for a more specific description, as opposed to calling for us take in a longer swath of the phenomenon. This is to say that it is possible that our description is incomplete because the thing we are describing has not been completed. Some forms of agency are not homogeneous in their rational structure; instead of having the structure of a game governed by a determinate set of rules throughout the course of play, they have the structure of a blurry image gradually coming into view. The college student will be able to produce a description that satisfies Velleman; but she may not be able to do so yet.

Consider the poetic last line quoted above: “reaches you had not thought that thought could reach.” Giamatti envisions a project where one could not have foreseen in advance the very existence of the developmental steps that one ends up taking, a voyage into territory that seems to materialize as one advances into it. This line captures the impotence of a motive such as “curiosity” to fuel the sort of exploration Giamatti has in mind. An appetite for learning is bounded by a person’s conception of what there is to be learned, and it is this conception, as much as anything, that is subject to revision, emendation, improvement. To “use the mind to explore the mind” involves using the mind to disturb, goad, and provoke the mind into wanting to know something, the knowledge of which will goad it into wanting more. It is hard work to learn to ask the questions of the physicist, the philosopher, the anthropologist. Those teachers do not simply provide answers to questions with which their students happen to approach them; one doesn’t study any of these subjects because one is “just curious.” Seeing one’s way to the questions of physics or philosophy is itself an achievement within physics and philosophy.^{Footnote 26}

We will lose our sense of what is happening with our students if we reinterpret what they are doing by way of a description that applies, homogeneously, throughout the process. It is true that college students are curious. It is also true that argumentative training fortifies a mind against deceptive political and commercial rhetoric, fitting one for democratic citizenship; college writing and classroom discussion gives a person lifelong training in articulating, and therefore also having, her own views; employers of many kinds are eager to hire liberal arts graduates.^{Footnote 27} College may, indeed, help you do whatever you happen to want to do next — but it is infelicitous to describe college students as engaged in the project of furthering whatever ends they might later acquire. No undergraduate ever wrote a great paper on Descartes solely with a view to acquiring skills she might later apply in her political career — even if it is true that by writing the paper she was thereby acquiring those skills. If we were assuming the parental model, we could separate the question of how the student conceives of what she is doing from the question of the kind of education she is receiving. But, as I’ve been insisting, college students are too old to have their learning governed by anyone’s else’s conception of its value.

The problem with portraying college as a rational skills factory is not only that the education has an intrinsic value that we ignore by instrumentalizing it as skill-acquisition; it’s that the very acquisition of those skills seems, in this case, to be predicated on not taking skill-acquisition as one’s primary goal.^{Footnote 28} Our students approach Descartes or painting or psychology in a meticulous rational spirit because they have learned, and are learning, to come to care about Descartes and painting and psychology. It is because the meaning of her life has become entwined with the meaning of some sentences in Descartes that Cartesian arguments become an arena in which the student’s mind develops. The entering class Giamatti addresses is likely to have left Yale with a toolkit of rational skills, for good jobs, and to have become better citizens in the process; but those descriptions will have left out much of what college has meant for them.

Velleman is right that if all we are doing is “doing something” or “becoming someone” then we are not doing anything at all. But there is an important difference between the question of whether someone is to be described in this objectionably “formal” or “generic” way in virtue of the beginning of the process or the end. Suppose a suit-maker cuts and tailors his suits to fit any figure. Before tailoring, such a suit is not a 38 or 40; it is not short or long. We would misrepresent the fact that such a suit has no determinate size^{Footnote 29} if we were to claim that it was one size fits all.^{Footnote 30} Rather, the suit is unfinished. I am encouraging the reader to resist shoehorning aspiration into agreement with Velleman’s principle by way of a generic common element, such as curiosity, rational skill-acquisition or citizenship training. The purpose of what you are doing can itself be something that you are learning; and one way that a purpose can guide your behavior is by becoming something you get better and better at grasping.

This form of guidance characterizes aspiration quite generally, but it stands out with special clarity in the case at hand. The case of the college student reveals that even when we have purged the aspirant of any attachment to music, or romance, or classics, we can still describe her as doing something — aspiring. She is trying to become someone, to acquire values, to come to see what she cannot yet get in view. College education is paradigmatically aspirational because the “purity” of the aspirant’s initial condition helps shine a spotlight on exactly what goes missing when we try to assimilate Bill and Sheila’s grasp of the value of music and romance to my grasp of the value of being a good guest. What drives Bill, Sheila, and the college student is not the appreciation of those values they already have, but the prospect of the (true, complete) appreciation they can see they lack.

But its purity also makes this particular form of aspiration especially puzzling. How can someone pursue the project of becoming someone when she has no (or wrong) ideas about who she wants to become? The answer, in this case, seems to be the existence of a special kind of institution. There do seem to be some unique features of the institutions that sustain such aspiration, for instance:

1. (1) They offer students the opportunity to learn just about anything they might end up wanting to learn. I could have become a classicist at a university without a physics department, but I wouldn’t have become an undergraduate classics major at such a place. For I came to classics through physics.

2. (2) They offer students extra-academic opportunities for engagement with sports, drama, journalism, religion, political activism.

3. (3) They offer opportunities for friendship and romance.

4. (4) They present all these varied forms of value to students who are not yet expected to have any expertise in them. Moreover, those students are at some leisure to explore these values without being subject to a demand to produce output of value to anyone but themselves.

5. (5) They surround the student, who has recently emerged from the orbit of her parents’ authority, with authorities in every subject but no parental substitutes. These authorities — professors, for the most part — are people whose guidance is conditional: they will help one make way in some domain of value provided that the one devotes oneself in that direction.

By way of these features, and perhaps others, a certain class of educational institutions — colleges and universities — make it possible to begin your aspirational path towards, for instance, philosophy or classics, before you have any sense of the relevant values as possible targets for aspiration.

In this essay, I have argued that aspiration helps us makes sense of liberal education. The aspirational analysis presents a third way between characterizing our students as children, and taking them to know already what kind of people they should become. When we see liberal education aspirationally, we are in a better position to articulate the distinctive benefits it can provide. Liberal education, in turn, helps us get aspiration squarely into view; for it focuses our attention on the characteristically aspirational movement towards value that Giamatti called the “splendid opening out of the self.”